Life Directions: Bullying

This shit pisses me off like nothing else. And it kinda hit close to home, I would've been that boy if I wasn't from buffalo. Lol seriously, I was fat and insecure and probably came off scary most of the time. But I was never scared to fight. But what if they thought I was? What would I do? Like, even if you can fight, 5 dudes on 1? Heh, If you are not Jackie chan or will smith in Hancock you done. And as a kid you think stupid like "ight if I don't fight back they'll stop soon". Nope. People prey on the weak, but as a kid you haven't learned that yet. So it's two ways it's gonna go. 

You're either going to get tougher from it and grown up to be a thug. Thug, but if the bullying is in a more suburban area you can join the military. But more than likely, Nah. You're a  local rapper. Tough local rapper that works at sears auto center. With a baby mama, that can't stand you. Bc you were controlling and aggressive. Subconsciously it's right to you because you were use to getting mollywhopped everyday .

Or..

You can let it consume you and turn you into a punk. Just a scary lil nigga, walk with your head down everywhere you go. Might even become gay bc on some weird scientific psychological shit. You were stimulated from them man handling you everyday. You secretly enjoyed it. Now you switch ya hips and do hair out the hood. 

Crazy right.. 

Those are some harsh realities, but you really have to go on those routes or something similar. Thats if you're weak. If you're not weak. You will find a way to overcome it, and make your life directions on your own. Maybe become rich and have enough respect that nobody will ever think of hitting you again. 

Did you figure out which route you will take? You had to really think about that right? Now think, a 13yr old just getting hair on his balls has to figure that out on his own. Not happening.

Best way to get kids getting bullied on the right path, is self defense and education. Education in school will make them intelligent enough to realize they should never be getting bullied. Then self defense, self defense will help... Well that's self explanatory 

So yea, bullying is disgusting. 

Clearly I am bored And light years away from sobriety. So if none of this made sense, my bad. I just felt like writing.

Sex on Pedestal

It's a rainy spring day evening in Virginia, the fan is blowing, drake take care is playing out the speakers. And my bed? It couldn't feel any more relaxing. That has nothing to do with this blog, just wanted to paint that picture so y'all can understand why this blog was even written. 

I wanted to talk about sex, sex sex sex that's all people think about. Don't get me wrong, sex is the second best thing after fried chicken fresh out the grease. But it's to the point that people put it on a pedestal, and quite frankly it is annoying. Yes as a man I love sex, yes most likely I will have sex with you if you're a woman I'm attracted to. But damn, that's all you think I want? Is your perception of men that fucked up that you think that's all any of us want? That's a pretty ignorant generalization if you ask me. I know that's what y'all want to believe but sorry, not all of us are the same. Sex isn't hard to get, after a while you start to want more. It happens. At least it happened to me. Of course telling a woman that sounds like game, because they think that's all we think about. Why can't I just want companionship? A female to talk to and care about? Is that hard to grasp and believe as the truth? In today's time, it is. When you don't just want sex, you're automatically categorized as a "b*tch" for the lack of better words. That's how it works now, you will be called sensitive if you appreciate women without sex. Crazy how that works right? You see it on twitter everyday, Rob Hill Sr will give women advice and men will riot because he's not being a scum bag. It's truly amazing to me. Don't get me wrong, I'm no saint. Not even close. I've had my savage days, even then I still always had respect for women. I just don't like the assumptions "oh he just wanna fuck" I feel disrespected by it. You think that's all I'm capable of wanting? I can't want to love you and care for you? That's impossible? The prejudging is getting old now, I wish it stop. Not to mention, when women think that's all a man wants, as men we think maybe that's all we should want. I mean, if she thinks all men just want to fuck clearly that's what she is use to.. Right? Laws of attraction, if you think that's all men want that's the type of men you will attract. Which will only prove your statement right about men. Just keep a open mind, let me love you without you disrespecting me with your generalizations about men. Know a respectable man when you see one, or hope what you see is a respectable man until proven otherwise. That's all I have, this whole blog probably didn't make sense. But it did to me, so there's that. Be great. 

My Soulmate

My soulmate is probably dead, or in a coma. My soulmate is probably with a fuck nigga who fuck bitches on the side. My soulmate probably keeps her feelings inside. Trying to hide, from past heartbreaks and lies. My soulmate probably scorned as hell. My soulmate probably has a boyfriend in jail who can't make bail. My soulmate probably never noticed me, or friend zoned me openly. My soulmate probably choose to be single. Knowing she wants to love, but feels she is incapable of loving another man. My soulmate probably does everything she can to only look at me as a friend. That's life tho. My soulmate might be reading this respecting my penmanship. Thinking the same thing about me shaking her head and calling me a hypocrite. Maybe my soulmate is you.